and i'm living like there's no tomorrow.

the past week at work was horribly long.
super blur huixin on full destruction mode again. haha just can't help making mistakes due to my carelessness foolishness blah.
and it's yah my fear of failing is at work again eating myself inside ):
but i am learning to shake off this stupid habit that have stuck to me since secondaryfour

anyway the weekend is here. and this weekend i have decided to stop living at home and enter the bright and shining world outside(:
going out to do some shopping even before my payday and then going class dinner
working makes a person independent because u have to depend on yourself
yes you can ask for help but most of the times u are on your own
which is not good for me because i am always needing people to second my thoughts before putting them in action

have more faith in yourself huixin!

i miss the innocent schooling days

i dread two weeks later when results are out. i can predict it wont be good after i handed in the papers. some subjects are going to be horrid. the lack of confidence makes me think back, if i could have worked harder, asked more, done more, slacked less.

everyone i heard off lately all dread this as much as i do.

yay going to take off on valentine's day! do date with winnie :D but i still havent tell boss!

hope that the next two days can re-charge & gain strength. quality of sleep lately is RARR ): very long dont have the close-eyes-sleep-then-open-eye-it's-morning le. wake up in the middle of the night every night. horrible!

ending off, i just bought clips from my friends who've got this website
http://kupinnco.blogspot.com/ they sell these clips so do patronise if interested(:
very pretty!

working makes me appreciate my weekends more.
the past few weekends are spent at home reading, watching tv, or out with my family(:
the thought of going out to shop or dine suddenly does not seems that attractive now

work is more endurable now than when i just started
think it's just a matter of getting used to it
to the 9 - 6.30 working hours
and more comfortable with the people there now
more at ease now (:
work can get monotonous from time to time
must go find fun in what i am doing
but i like my boss and colleagues lar they are nice people who mean no harm(:

fridays are the best
up to now my friday nights are spent getting together with old friends
sharing what's on at work. how school seems much better compared to work.
realise that i am not alone in this afterall
and somehow friday nights i sleep better knowing tomorrow would be a relaxing day spent at my own pace and pleasure
but i hope i will adapt better to work since i have to last all the way till june
hopefully the day will come when i look forward to waking up in the morning and going off to work(: maybe this day will come. hmm maybe not

goodluck to all those working. working makes one miss old pals and innocent moments(: it's been three days of work!

and it felt long! okays that is not an exaggaration

it still takes time getting use to working environment, which i find is more complicated than the comfort when studying

i miss lectures, seriously ):

but the people there at work are friendly lar just i resist changes as always

and i think too much sometimes. too tense!

hope i will settle in this new place soon. work is manageable lar just a few slips here and there but the work isn't rocket science

must start calling on people to come lunch with me as frequently as possible! if u in jurong area from 1 to 2pm my lunch hour, do drop by my workplace! i treat u drink coffee (:

yah i am homesick lately. work makes people like me homesick

but i am thinking positive despite all this ramblings. it will get better!

i will appreciate my student life more next time tmr will be my first day at work
i am employed!
but after the excitement and gratitude that i've finally got a job
the nervousness and fear starts to set in
i've always dreaded change in my life
nervous that my boss would be fierce and demanding
that i would make stupid mistakes (okays that is for sure)
scared that i cannot fit into the environment there
but there are 1001 things that can go wrong while working
but i will make sure that i wont do wrong things twice
thanks winnie for your croc and your encouragement from experience
i will learn, even if it is the hard way

okays i will stay clear-minded and keep an open mind
things will be better after tomorrow!
i am working at chevrons in the HR department
handling membership applications and related stuff
everything's going to be new to me
but hopefully not for long
my boss is a lady and she seems to be a nice woman
she reminds me of ms deborah how
a nice and reasonable lady but demanding at work

i will keep my fears at bay as far as possible
can predict that first few days will be more difficult
but it will get easier i hope
looking forward to a good first day at work(: