you have stepped into
and i'm living like there's no tomorrow.
3:17 PM, Monday, May 19, 2008
every monday should be a holiday!
it's been a great weekend right now.
every monday should be a holiday! it makes the weekend 10x more enjoyable knowing that can sleep in on monday and lag my monday away.
list of things i have accomplished during this vesak day long weekend:
1. catching up and catching up and more catching up!
2. biking! finally i am able to stay on the bike for a long enough time to actually look around at the people and scenery beside me. but something i realised while i was on the bike is that biking is quite a individual thing. of course you can have people in front and beside you, guiding you and giving you pointers along the way. but when you are on the bike, you have to be independent and think on your feet. I am glad i was determind to keep going on even though i have the lousiest sense of balance and the fear of falling gets at me sometimes. And thanks to the ever so protective shihui, the steady qianzhi and the thoughtful xiuhui who shouted to me when there are on-coming bikes, i think that this saturday evening was time really really well-spent and worthwhile.
3. making one important decision that could affect the rest of my three years in uni. after hearing from my family members and relatives and also doing some thinking for myself, i decided to turn down the offer for the ntu scholarship. i am still going to nanyang business school because it is what i want but without the scholarship. it seems stupid, even when i am typing it out now, but i guess this decision was in me all the while, from the moment i stepped out of the interview room in ntu. I guess it isn't what I want afterall. Nevertheless, the offer was good, giving that i am going to study there anyway, and for a moment i was tempted to take i on. but i guess weighing what really matters to me and how i want to see myself in the future really pushes me to make this decision that i know that is right, even though it seems foolish. It is not that I am afraid of taking of challenges but I do not want to make a promise, when I do not even know what i am promising and whether i would even like it. The feeling of being obliged to do something, doing for the sake of doing, because i have promised to do so does not appeal to me. It is great that my parents are all supportive because they say I have to make a choice for myself. Finally having come to a decision, even though it is just one day before the deadline, makes me feel lighter inside and that i hope that this decision is right (: anyway i don't lose out that much and maybe i would even gain in the long run.
okays ntu business, here i come!
4. recharging for work. much of this weekend is spent at home watching vcds and tv and snacking away with my family. i actually like the feeling that i have all the time in the world and could spend it anyhow i like. even though this isn't all enriching but i think such times like that would be hard to come when school starts so i shall enjoy and appreciate it while i can. anyway mad rush would begin when work starts on tuesday because i have lots of stuff pending and piling up. work ends on 30june and i guess it's really fast given that i have already spent 5+ months at chevrons already and it would all end in another 1month and 10days. till then, i am going to continue working hard and clearing my work and earn money!
on a down note, boss nadia and executive jessica left last week. boss nadia gave me a card on her last day at work and i was really touched when i read it. it seems like she has more faith in me than i have in myself and it makes me want to believe in myself and what i am worth. thanks boss nadia, for giving me confidence in myself. i doubt you will read this but i am wish the best for you in whichever place you will be going to and thanks for showing me someone whom i want to be like in the future(:
i love public holidays!